i was welcomed with loads of housework the moment i flung my slippers on the carpet. what a warm welcome; cos it does really makes me sweat.
i was flipping through history. junk which means really important back in the years of 1990s. i found diskettes, dairies ( non-fashion blog), bookmarks and neo-prints.
=The most blood sucking stupid lameless stickers which will fade over time unless you make e effort to buy their "neo-print album" and sticks which ever frends' you had exchanged for yours. at the century when a school gal is getting a pathectic "pocket-money" of less than $20 a week, while u need to feed that bloody machine with 8 golden coins each time u make a "kaawaaii" post on the mirror image, and the japanese speaking machines presume you actually understand " ok.. take 5! 4! 3!2!1!". so you end up seeing all those neo-prints with ghostly images. Best: NO REFUND=
back to cleaning up my room, i found one of my dad's pics. celebrating his 30th birthday. suddenly emptiness filled in. aside of having an extra pair of hands for spring cleaning. i'm short of my dad for dinner. short of him asking mi for a pair mandarin oranges in exchange for the ang-bao on his hand as mid-night arrives. i found myself tearing while doing the job. it gets even tired. mum didn't make the usual steamboat this year. 3 of us sat down on the big round table; started eating; what was left was exactly what dad would usually polished off. i forced myself to finished off my rice, not to upset mummy. althou i could tell that everything was delicious, but i just couldn't taste it. it's just the beginning, it's not just this year, it's going to be forever.
birthday always seems to fall during new year period. i cant wait for my birthday dinner this year as planned. it's probably the happiest thing i can hope for and looked forward to.
alright, enuff of my grumblings.
wishing all my frends ... (althou's mum said i shldnt blessed others as dad just left us)... well happy holidays.
-love-
*kris*
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